To say I love my dogs is the greatest down play my dogs are my best friends my family and my life. They give my life meaning and purpose and they offer a love unlike any other in all the galaxies.
With my dogs i know where I stand and what is real they know only how to love they are not dishonest evil or cunning they love to a fault and make me feel like a celebrity every time I walk into the room even if I have only went out for a second.
I wish everyone could know this kind of love I wish every dog knew this kind of gratitude of a human if I had the space I would take in every dog in need of a family and home if the city would get off my back change ordinances and stop murdering animals in they greedy hunt for money I would have the worlds largest sanctuary just me and my four legged babies away from the evils of the world
finally i was 13! no longer a “PER TEEN” anf that ment that i was now able to leave well kind i mean there would be a warrent put out for arrest and when i got caught and returned to the home id be grounded so to speak but i didnt care i wanted out id been waiting to this day the day when they would no longer run after me and tackle me hold me down as i yell crying and yelling in pain form the anywhere from 2 to 6 adults that were conducting the restraint i hated it everytime i was in one everyting went dark and i was traped inside not only their hold but inside my head with the memories of when HE use to do this when i was traped in HIS hold.
the 1st time i went awol i was overfiled with excitement it felt like i was in a life form video game trying to pass through levels while out smarting and avoiding staff members cops and social workers. the home that i was in was a childerns home way out in the middle of no where between santa rosa and sonoma it was a bit of a ways out there with a long highway that seperated the home from the outside world that was the 2nd part of the 1st level of the game the goal being to make it to the end of the highway without getting caught so the quickest yet not the smartest option was to hickhike which everyone knows is dangerous and more so to young girls. but we were human girls human teen girls and….. we dont really do to good at making smart choices.
it was issa, ana and myself i anawas my celli wife my 1st real one i liked her so much i wanted to fuck her like ive had never fucked any other person before but not there not at the home fuck no i wanted it to be perfect when i fucked my bitch for the 1st time plus i wanted to watch her walk around in a sexy ass teddy for me while she made that big ol ghetto boody clap on my face i wanted to eat her pussy in a bubble bath i wanted to fill her pussy with whiped cream and suck it out of her while licking and sucking carmal off her little clit, but not at the home i wanted to take her to my home well my moms home it wasnt the best but it was better then the home i cant remember why issa came with but she was cool as fuck and cute if it wasnt that ana was my girl shit i would have fucked that cute bitch as good issa was tall and thin she had long legs flat tummy little bump of a butt and iddy biddy tities i bet she had tiny little pink nipples to go with her tiny little pink clit white skin and blue cat like eyes straight dark blonid hair that went to the middle of her back she had nice ass lip that was what i liked about her i could kiss them all day sucking and biting her bottom one as i fingered her tiny pink cunt and warm wet tiny tight pussy till it was her biting on my bottom lip stabing my shoulders as she came her come driping down my hand i didnt like that part i mean the whole squrting come on now i was only 13 anyways ana was same as me about 5 ft she had short deep red brown hair her eyes were green her skin pale white like powder she didnt have much of lips and her jaw was small but she had a smile that made my pussy tingle and throb her titties were big enough i could fit them in my mouth her tummy wasnt flat but it wasnt big her tighs were thick and her ass was fucking huge i mean it was big as fuck it must of been like 50 handfulls im not joking i wanted to eat that thing i wanted to have it smacking my face as i lay under her making her come all over my face making her yell out my name making her eyez roll all the way around soon enough i told myself.
we made to my house tessa was the best 3rd wheel lol (na love yu mama) that night without much words to my mom ana was on my bed when i came into the room she was laying on my bed with her pants already off ” good girl you already for me baby girl” she didnt say anything but her eyes said it all she was on her back up on her elbows biting her bottom lip and with her eyes pleading begging for me to fuck her to put my money were my mouth was so to say i went to my closet and took down a bag of toys oh i was going to have his bitch merry me when i got done with her reaching the bed she reached out to pull me “stop that ” i said ” ill be doing the touching ” ” what not fair” she said ” baby trust me let me show you how i feel about you ” i pushed her back onto the bed and laid over her kissing her neck and lightly licking down to her collor bone ripping off her tub top her titties were perfect they bounced with every breath she took her left nipple in my mouth sucking like an infent feeding off its mother she maoned a light little moan to made me so wet i didnt want to rush i wated to make sure this bitch remeber me
Hello my name is Christina I live in Sonoma County and I have decided to take the next step and turn a long term passion into a helping factor to my community and nation. I am the founder and creator of two non profits that are new to the public but have been in the works for a little over 11 years. I run and operate an alternative animal rescue as well as an outreach program that operates with a unique approach and base of ethics and philosophy. I am a survivor of many hardships who was blessed with the ability to see more than the moment of hardship in that sight of the whole picture was never fully out of sight, I aim to pass down the teaching that saved my life and that helped me push through till I was able to get to the place I am at today I love humanity as a whole and aim to teach those I interact with that there is no level of pain no shade of darkness no extent of evil or ugly that can not be healed by the most simple defensives LOVE RESPECT COMPASSION EMPATHY COURAGE HONSTEY AND HONOR I want to help bring those strong enough to enact these strengths together so that we can help reinstall humanity and heal broken communities from the inside out. each one playing a role in helping the next PAYING IT FORWARD when the project is carried out the way it is intended to be slowly but surely piece by piece as the links in the chain grow we can and will be able to bring on a global change a better day, life world and future. please take a moment to visit the web sites listed below to get a better understanding of what I mean and please do not mistake this for having a single aim or hope this message is what it claims to be in it’s subject line a simple introduction to establish and announce my presents and to hopeful meet some like minded individuals who may be willing to pass along the message and I promise to return the favor times are hard I get it we all get it but closed mouths do not get feed and goal is to one day see all mouths be feed fairly and rightfully
There is less than 2 days left to find a lawyer for cps court and no one is calling back or responding to the emails I’ve sent out. I have wrote to EVERY lawyer in this whole county and even in main and la and nothing…. I feel like in no matter how much I try it does not matter
The nature of this letter is to address the coruption of Sonoma County’s Family Youth and Children agency and the abuse of power displayed by a high number of workers within the department including the agency’s leaders.
In following lines I have included examples of misconduct of the department, specific and descriptive examples of the abuse of powers as well as support text taken from CA laws and codes as well as the constitution of united states.
All information within this document is factual and truth and I invite any persons who find themself reading this document to go and refresh they knowledge and understanding of the laws this country and state operate on.
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There has never been any kind of abuse in my relationship with the father of my daughter nor has there ever been a report provided by the worker. The claim of there ever being abuse or even that it was ever “NOTED” is a lie. A flat out lie no proof no claim no supporting document nothing more the the social workers false statement. This was point out many times but oddly enough never got addressed not so much as a response.
The worker ended this section with “ and the dependency proceedings were dismissed” ( remember this)
In the case of my 3rd baby who was born in 2013 the worker made blind statements that again were not supported by any official “REPORT” only opinions of the worker.
Medical documents will prove that it was in fact st. joseph medical group where I went when my c section cut got infected not sutter so when the worker claims to have talked to medical staff at SUTTER and was told about me leaving the state to RUN again that was a lie she couldnt get the name of the hospital right. I moved to oregen when I was 4 months pregant due to the fact that mother whom I lived with moved to fresno to care for her dying mother and I was had not place to live in sonoma county so I went to work at a family friends daycare in medford oregen where I gave birth to my son.
The worker stated that I did not go to the doctor the whole time I was pregant at first but when two clinics provided medical documentaion she changed to “ she bounced around from lake, sonoma, and mendocino counties trying to run from the county”
…… I did not know that there was a reason to run and I never lived in lake or mendocino county in fact at the time I was living in st helena and only gave birth in mendocino county because I went into early unexpected labor 5 weeks early while going along for a ride with my at the time room mate to pick up tires. I just want to point out that every baby i have had they claim I was running even thought there is no proof of that. Even when I have established housing. They must know of a REASON I would run being that it is the first thing they try to claim.
I wasnt running. I was in different locations with different babies years apart because I had reached a time that I was looking forward to having the chance to be mom and had left the prior location out of heart break from the lost of my babies.
So if moving away and trying to move forward with my life, trying to put distance between me and a dark painful past then maybe I am guilty of running but let say this clear I had no intention of running i was simply trying to pick up the pieces of what was left of myself and I tried to get on as best i could. I was in foster care in sonoma county from the ages 9 to 16 my mothers case for me did not close until I was 19 and having my 2nd baby, my 1st baby was at 17 and he was taken because I could not explain who he got hurt well theres a good reason for that I was not around I was getting high so his dad took him and moved in with his parents when I got to the hospital the doctor told me the injeries were 4 weeks old and I Hadnt seen my baby in 6 weeks. But because I was an easy target I lost. I did everything the department asked of me i was the youngest mom to complete drug court but because i couldnt tell them what happened they said I could not get him back. And because i was having another baby i should just focus on the new baby and move on…… I asked if they planned to take the new baby when she was born and they said no that there was no reason i was doing good and i would just say that it was my fault my son got hurt they would be able to consider giving him back.. Then when my daughter was born they came within hours and made me leave the hospital early form a c section to go to court to take her away. I got her back that following monday judge ornell knew me from when i was a kid and he knew that taken her was not right him and robin smith a worker i had as a kid is the one that came to take me to court she took the stand for me and almost lost her job for saying that she did not agree with taking my daughter when she said that the da asked her “ are you sure about that? Do you know what your doing? She held strong and stood up for me. The relief of getting my daughter back was short lived because the worker that came after tormented me and even told a teach at windsor oaks “ he was not suppose to do that judge dont disagree with us and now it falls on me to make this right “ whatever that meant. I was 19 and scared so i agreed to let my mom take guardianship I never LOST her as the worker claim when trying to use that to make taking my new baby away right. I have been marked from the gate because i myself was a foster care kid i was an abused and troubled kid who ended up an addict and i was too easy of a target for them to allow me peace with my babies. I take pride in my abliity to own up to the things that I should I have never played the innocent roll I know that I have many things that I wish I could redo and I have my fair share of faults and I own up to my addiction. I was young and I had no idea how to be a mom I was raised most of younger years in the system.
There is an issue with the way things are ran withing our government and something needs to be done about it.
What is meant to serve as a branch that helps families by protecting children and providing families the tools and skills needed to be healthy safe and funcitioning ends up doing more damage than anyone could possibly understand.
Not to be misunderstood or taken as a claim that all social workers are bad or that no one in that feild is in it because they really want to make difference and help because there are many such workers the only problem is that the numbers of the bad workers outweigh the good ones.
Over the years values are lost and hearts grow cold and I guess in a way in order to do the work one must in a sense distance themselves and refrain from becoming attached to the clients.
The danger in this should be clear, that distance is the very thing that prevents the workers from treating clients as people rather they the clients become just another job just another dollar. One of an endless case load.
Families are toren apart and life long damage is inflicted on all parties involved at least on the families end. The separation of children from their families is cruel unmoral and wrong.
400,000,000 reposts of abandoned kids and kids living on their own you would think that this is were focus should go and your right if in fact the real intent of CPS was to HELP and PROTECT kids in need but that couldn’t be farther from the truth. The ugly truth is that in these 400,000,000 abandoned kids the ages of them are older than what the average couple is looking to adopt, just like with dogs everyone wants a puppy in human terms they want infants or as close to as possible in order to play into their fancy of playing house. This is wrong and this violates natural rights on every level.
I had to bite my inner cheek to keep my lip from quivering. As I slowly packed my belongings all I could think about was ” it’s all over” once again, I found myself packing my stuff to return to Valley of the moon once again….
Vomch had become the base center of my life it’s were I always ended back at it was were I felt familiar so returning usually wasn’t a big deal for me but this time was different everything was different I was different even though the timing from my last time there had only been about a year I had left a little girl and was returning matured I had grown even though I was far being grown
I know what I want. I know how I want my life to be . I know who I want to be but for some reason I can’t seem to unstuck myself. God give me the strength to accept the things I can not change the courage to charge the things I can and wisdom to know the difference
The worker ended this section with “ and the dependency proceedings were dismissed” ( remember this) 
Throughtinaseyes 